As I sit watching the water boil, with each air bubble a ray of hope that, "yes, it is about to boil" but no
this cruel water will not...it will play with your emotions watching giving you hope and then taking it back
you try and walk away but its the hope that keeps you grounded

damn it...why don't you boil over and end it all

Current Mood: blah

There are times when you walk around in daze, just constantly thinking, long and hard. You try and keep yourself busy just so that you do not think about it. But even while working, the thought creeps into your head. You can't seem to get rid of it. You like the thought to some extent but are also saddened by this.

She consumes your thoughts.

But couple of weeks later, she is gone as fast as she came.
You feel peaceful but you miss the thought now.
Only refuge you get is,
Within the arms of slumber, going to leave it all behind

Tags: frustration, head
Current Mood: peaceful

if the world could remain within a frame like a painting on a wall.
Then I think we would see the beauty.
Then we would stand staring in awe

sitting at home, reflecting on myself, I have realized that i am truly happy with my circle.

Current Mood: calm

Life is full of mysteries. Serendipity is an important part of life. Do we have choices or is it all planned. Things that are supposed to happen will happen, the future is not ours to see.
Enjoy it and laugh through this crazy roller coaster ride of life.

Current Mood: giddy

You know when you are a kid, and you think that everything in life is possible. You want to become an astronaut or a superhero and all those dreams look real to you. There is no one in the world at that time who says, "no you cant do it".
Now that I am in college, almost graduating and I cant still make up my mind. Do I go to law school or medical school. The thoughts swirl in my head and I still cannot figure out what I want to do.

Law school is great, I get to argue, discuss and come up with innovative ideas to solve problems. But the problem with that is that those things come with medical school. Then what is it that is keeping me from going to medical school, and the answer is simple, FEAR.

Fear of what one might ask. It is the fear of having someones life depend on your decisions and your thoughts.
One thing is clear, both professions are excellent options, high income and status in society. To excel in both fields one needs to put in enormous amount of work and energy, but the the way I look at it is, if you are going to work your ass off you might as well as do it for something you have a passion for.

Is it a sign from god that my LSAT classes got canceled 3 times or is he just testing my desire to go to law school. I don't have the answers but one thing is for sure, both fields excite me in very different ways but one comes with a deep seated fear and the other does not.

Lets hope I can figure it out.

Indeed today was or has been so far a perfect day. What did I do all day you ask me? Well first of all my girlfriend came over last night which I must say indeed was a lot of fun. Friday came and it was one of those perfect days where you do not want to get out of bed. The weather was cold outside but it was just right in the apartment. It was a day when you are in bed and the bed is warm just due to your body heat and the rest of the house is cold. Beds are awesome. You can either hit the exact right spot like I did today, where no matter how you lay and relaxed you were more comfortable than you had ever been.
Now what am I doing, sitting in my apartment, relaxing and watching some television. One might say, "Sachin don't you think you should be more socially productive". To that I say, " you have clearly never lay in bed in the perfect position".
Tomorrow is going to be a long day but to that I say I will deal with it when tomorrow comes.

Ahhhh, the math lab. It's the place where I work 4 times a week. What do I do here you ask? Well I teach mathematics to undergraduate students. Wow you say, an undergrad teaching other undergrads. Man you must be smart. But wait, what kind of mathematics is taught here? It is in this very answer will you true ly understand the level of retardation that is present in my university. I teach basic elementary algebra. 
But how can that be? At the university level students must already know this. That is indeed true my friend, but we are surrounded by retards who cant add, subtract, multiply or divide basic numbers. In a country where every thing is avaliable in bulk, basic education is not provided to our students at the school level. 
Yes this does depress me and makes me wonder about the high school education in this country compared to mine. But then I realize and say, f*** it because without them I would not have a job.

P.S. I am writing this blog while I am at work.

Current Location: Math Lab